How We Became

You, our friends and I all on your couch talking enjoying the night. I walked over to the bar and grabbed the vodka. We all sat there joking, smiling and passing the bottle around, from one end of the couch to the other. Everyone's drunk and making love. You and I aren't even past the tipsy point, but we're loving each others company, each others touch. I lean over brushing my chest against your's and grab the bottle from the table. I look into your eyes and feel the warmth from your stare, and swing my leg over so that I'm sitting in your lap. The bottle of vodka in one hand, and your chest in the other. I take in more then I expected, drinking half of whats left... feeling the burning in my throat. Gently with one hand you take the bottle from me and with the other hand you put it around my waist pulling me close. You drink the rest of what I left, and toss the bottle on the floor. You bring your hand to mine then bring it up to your chest and whisper, "My heart beats like a murderer on a killing rampage, my heart only beats for you, and my lips will only kiss yours." Then you pull me closer and softly kiss me on my lips.
Pleasure, Beauty, Intense, Gentle,
I pull away slowly asking myself what I am doing but my body and mind have a plan but aren't letting me in on it expecting me to ruin it all. I look back into your eyes and you hold me closer then ever and with such a passion, kiss me until my lips are numb... I want more but my heart is afraid of the heart break, of the tears, of having to deal with a player, but I can't resist. You stand up with me still on your chest and my legs wrapped around your waist, rush into the bedroom across the hall, you gently close the door and toss me on the nicely made bed, I can't help but giggle. You walk over and kiss me all over, taking off my shirt as I take off yours. You lean against me..... chest against chest, forehead to forehead, staring into my eyes, breathing heavy. You kiss me again and again, over and over. Letting your hand slide down my chest, you stop at my waist and pull me over to you... and say "Will you be the only girl that I call my girlfriend? The one who I can't stop texting for longer then 2 minutes? The only girl I want to have her bare chest against mine? The only lips I can kiss? Will you be all those things and more?" What else was there to say besides yes. There, in your arms, chest against chest, we fall asleep, and when I wake up, you tell me in a whisper that you love me and lean over and kiss me like mad. At that point I knew that you weren't after the sex, you were after my love.... and I willingly, with lust... gave it all to you.

All I have Left

Please know, you're all I have left. Once you leave my heart, and soul are gone too. I can't figure out how to tell you, you mean the world to me. I want you to know that, my life is different when you don't bother me, pick on me, ignore me, fight with me, help me fight my battles. It's all different. You're not around, you don't tell me how to behave in front of guests, you don't tell me to stop embarrassing myself, you won't be able to be the first one on scene when I get called into the principals office for starting a fight. If we can't try and make peace now, before you leave, it won't be the same, and I don't think I can find another guardian angel like you. I hope that in the end after we make up or hate each other more, if you leave or stay, if we talk or don't, if you love me or not, that we still will have each other's back's even if we don't wanna admit we do. Thank you for being there when I needed you, now I hope I can be there for you, when you need someone the most.

Truth

My neck is stiff from turning my head,
My eyes are watery staring all the time,
My back hurts from turning away,
My heart aches from when you dropped and lost it,
Now I'm a puzzle with a few pieces missing,
I don't ever think I can forgive you,
For what you did that killed me,
Now I'm on my own, my things missing, my things hurting, my things dieing, my things disappearing...
But I know I'll still make it without you.