All I have Left

Please know, you're all I have left. Once you leave my heart, and soul are gone too. I can't figure out how to tell you, you mean the world to me. I want you to know that, my life is different when you don't bother me, pick on me, ignore me, fight with me, help me fight my battles. It's all different. You're not around, you don't tell me how to behave in front of guests, you don't tell me to stop embarrassing myself, you won't be able to be the first one on scene when I get called into the principals office for starting a fight. If we can't try and make peace now, before you leave, it won't be the same, and I don't think I can find another guardian angel like you. I hope that in the end after we make up or hate each other more, if you leave or stay, if we talk or don't, if you love me or not, that we still will have each other's back's even if we don't wanna admit we do. Thank you for being there when I needed you, now I hope I can be there for you, when you need someone the most.

The Real Me

I wanna be unknown. Left alone. I'm one who takes a shot to drink the pain away. The one who slit her wrist and sometimes still does just so the pain, the hate and every other damn thing can flow out her body like the blood she releases. I'm the girl that undiscovered, undecided. I'm the girl that all the out cast want to hang with because I'm open. I'm the girl that ALL the people want to be with. I'm the girl who had the guy she like beat her to shreds with his words and fits. I'm the girl who stared at her self in disgusts because she thinks shes ugly. I'm the girl that everyone thinks is pretty and cool. I'm the girl who wants to change for the better. I'm the girl with the life story that in the end you would die of a broken heart for. I'm the girl who can kill a cold hearted person with a cause of a broken heart. I'm the girl that almost committed suicide but was found and saved. I'm the girl who wishes she were dead. I'm the girl who starved herself to be thin. I'm the girl that all the boys wanted but she didn't understand why. I'm the girl with the family that doesn't love her. I'm the girl who can be a total bitch when needed. I'm the girl that wants to be who she really is and not some fake, plastic person. I'm the girl who will fight for what she loves. I'm the girl who needs to be loved but left unknown.