You Want...

You want me in your life and you want me to love you. But right now I'm sick of playing your games! I loved you and you knew that and you know that I still love you no matter what happens, you will always hold a special place in my heart and you can't be replaced. Yet you used how I felt about you, and took that and used it against me. You split my heart in two. But now that I think back on it maybe it's not so bad that you did that, because I just saved myself so much more of a heartbreak, even though I wish I was with you right now... in your arms, with your lips on mine, your hands around my waist, my chest against your chest. The funny thing is, even though we're over, every now and then you run back to me and the cycle repeats... and since we're over the pain is just a bit more fun because now we don't fell guilty with our pleasure. Always and Forever, our pleasure will remain between us too.

The World In True Form

Love is fake. Hate is real. Death happens all around. Life happens once. Tears fall everyday. Smiles surprise you. Strangers aper. But having the same feelings for you happen all the time. We had a thing, then lost each other. I had to break away from the one who put me together when I got hurt. The scars last forever. The pain occurs once in awhile. The heart break kills when I remember us before. The smiles at this moment are cover ups of my true pain. Life became a nightmare and we are all living in it, because we don't know how to get away from it, from the memories, from the good, from the bad, from it all. And we just sit and have everything rush back to us. Your naive, rude, selfish, conniving, ignorant, and spoiled. You wish to have everyone bow down at your feet but if such doesn't occur you, go wild with rage, your face boils, your eyes widen, and your fist's clench. So I left and the one your with now has been passed around like a dirty wash rag, used time and time again. And baby our relationship was like a ship hitting rocks, yet I was the best, most faithful, and hottest chick you ever had and ever will. In the end... I still love you. 

Love Lost

Without you, loves lost, I'm lost, hurt. Tears, Then joy. Because you become found once again. I'm no longer lost. But our love is. No clue how long it will take me to love you, and you to love me. How long till we forget love? How long till I can't stand you? Now I sit and wonder through the night how all these questions could be answered. Is it with you in my life? Or our love terminated forever?

Losing Life

I love, I lose, I live, I hurt, I cry, I do everything a normal person may do, but the one thing I want people not to see about me... Is of how I am trying to lose my life. I can't deal with having people walk away. It becomes hard to continue with the days. I need special people in my life. The ones I love, always and forever will need. But when I tell people these things of my emotions of losing and loving all people can say is.... so what do you want me to do about it? NO!! Thats not what I'm saying! Understand me. I never asked you for help or your sarcasm, but what I do need is for you to stop being an ass and hold me, support me, make me feel loved for as those who walked out I can't love anymore. But thee one telling all emotions running through thy's mind needs to love one and one needs to love thy. For I now state I can no longer live life without ones I love. Because of those days since I lost those special people I hurt. So now I try over and over to lose my life. I have secret scars on my wrist showing how I let the blood flow when I'm a mix of emotions. The stress takes over my body, I begin to give into the blade on my table. I grab the sharp object, head for the bathroom, let the water run, get it soak my body in hot pooling water, and then I do it. The blood flows, as the stress, anger, tears, and pain flow out into the water. The clear water becomes a pool of blood surrounding me. I slide under and stay. When I retrieve myself for under the world, I let it go, clean up and continue on with the day........ as if nothing happened.

Real World

There are fakes, there are real. There are ones that are loved, there are ones that are hated. There are The Good,  there are The Bad. But in the world we live in today we all are bad. There is no good soul that can be there 24/7 to love, to hold, to care, and to just be a hero to the world. Their only a hero for a moment or two, from when their time passes they begin to fade, to disappear, to be forgotten.... Because you are as important to another person as the world is important to them. They care for you as much as they care for other people unlike themselves. And if you think you're any different then babe you need a reality check. Because truth is no one, no one is gonna love you more than they love themselves if your lucky someone will love you more than them. But really you gotta love yourself to live, and move on in life.

Tonight

Dark. Touch. Kiss. Lips. Smiles. Breath. Hands. Wondering. Was the choice right. Realizing. This moment is what WE! were waiting for. Sparks. Joy. Screams. More. Of it all. Hard. Breath, Eyes meet. Love locks. Kiss. Won't tell. Wanting more from both ends. You. Needing. Me wanting. Continually. Never ending..... Love. Love is all I need. But. You need to be the one I love.

Sex Night

Bodies. Touch. Soft. Rough. Hurt. No Regret. You say you loved it. Lie. You hated it. Lie. Truth is. It. Was. Amazing. I. Know. You'll. Die. To. Have. Us. One. More. Time. Dark. Dreamy. Love. Beneath. Me. On. Top. Of. You. Can't get of. Kiss. Lips. Neck. That. One. Special. Touch. Goosebumps. Breathe. Loving. Each. Second. Needing. More. I. Can. Give you what you want. You. Can. Give me what I want...


                           Let's relive these moments again.