You Want...

You want me in your life and you want me to love you. But right now I'm sick of playing your games! I loved you and you knew that and you know that I still love you no matter what happens, you will always hold a special place in my heart and you can't be replaced. Yet you used how I felt about you, and took that and used it against me. You split my heart in two. But now that I think back on it maybe it's not so bad that you did that, because I just saved myself so much more of a heartbreak, even though I wish I was with you right now... in your arms, with your lips on mine, your hands around my waist, my chest against your chest. The funny thing is, even though we're over, every now and then you run back to me and the cycle repeats... and since we're over the pain is just a bit more fun because now we don't fell guilty with our pleasure. Always and Forever, our pleasure will remain between us too.

The World In True Form

Love is fake. Hate is real. Death happens all around. Life happens once. Tears fall everyday. Smiles surprise you. Strangers aper. But having the same feelings for you happen all the time. We had a thing, then lost each other. I had to break away from the one who put me together when I got hurt. The scars last forever. The pain occurs once in awhile. The heart break kills when I remember us before. The smiles at this moment are cover ups of my true pain. Life became a nightmare and we are all living in it, because we don't know how to get away from it, from the memories, from the good, from the bad, from it all. And we just sit and have everything rush back to us. Your naive, rude, selfish, conniving, ignorant, and spoiled. You wish to have everyone bow down at your feet but if such doesn't occur you, go wild with rage, your face boils, your eyes widen, and your fist's clench. So I left and the one your with now has been passed around like a dirty wash rag, used time and time again. And baby our relationship was like a ship hitting rocks, yet I was the best, most faithful, and hottest chick you ever had and ever will. In the end... I still love you. 

We Are All Victims

We are all victims. We can all be victims of love, hate, pleasure, life and death. Everything happens and changes for a reason. We die for a cause. We live for a cause. We smile for a cause. We love for a cause. But we don't decide who dies, who kills, and who survives. We are just the innocent bystanders as the ciaos unfolds. Some choose to stand there and watch people suffer. Others choose to take a stand and fight for the cause. And others just want to move on. Yet the one thing where we can't choose is who will walk away alive form the world, and walk into peace. The anger explodes out of us as we deal with it and walk on. We are all victims.

Difference

The ground, the sky, theres a difference.

The moon, the sun, theres a difference.

The night, the day, theres a difference.

With every two things theres a difference. Between me and you theres a difference. Yet the difference brings us together. I think, and know I can never let you go. The difference that me and you have makes me love you more, makes me want you more. We both walk on the ground together, and look at the sky together. We both wish we were on the moon together, and we both wish we could fly past the sun together. We walk through the night together, and we walk through the day together. Theres still a difference, your you and I'm me. But that difference makes you you and me me. The difference between everything in the world makes everything special in its own way.

Rainy Days

When it rains, it's a cloud of grey, that follows you beyond your mind can travel. It makes your trips worth wild and some making you wish you never left your nice warm bed under the toasty covers. But crying is part of how you feel most days it becomes nice to walk in the rain. As the drop lets fall on your cheeks and your tears roll down alongside the rain, the mixture of salt and water, calms the body down. You begin to feel as if the world feels you pain and cries with you. But to know that the world does feel your pain but its worse for the world and the crap it has to go through.

Love Lost

Without you, loves lost, I'm lost, hurt. Tears, Then joy. Because you become found once again. I'm no longer lost. But our love is. No clue how long it will take me to love you, and you to love me. How long till we forget love? How long till I can't stand you? Now I sit and wonder through the night how all these questions could be answered. Is it with you in my life? Or our love terminated forever?

Losing Life

I love, I lose, I live, I hurt, I cry, I do everything a normal person may do, but the one thing I want people not to see about me... Is of how I am trying to lose my life. I can't deal with having people walk away. It becomes hard to continue with the days. I need special people in my life. The ones I love, always and forever will need. But when I tell people these things of my emotions of losing and loving all people can say is.... so what do you want me to do about it? NO!! Thats not what I'm saying! Understand me. I never asked you for help or your sarcasm, but what I do need is for you to stop being an ass and hold me, support me, make me feel loved for as those who walked out I can't love anymore. But thee one telling all emotions running through thy's mind needs to love one and one needs to love thy. For I now state I can no longer live life without ones I love. Because of those days since I lost those special people I hurt. So now I try over and over to lose my life. I have secret scars on my wrist showing how I let the blood flow when I'm a mix of emotions. The stress takes over my body, I begin to give into the blade on my table. I grab the sharp object, head for the bathroom, let the water run, get it soak my body in hot pooling water, and then I do it. The blood flows, as the stress, anger, tears, and pain flow out into the water. The clear water becomes a pool of blood surrounding me. I slide under and stay. When I retrieve myself for under the world, I let it go, clean up and continue on with the day........ as if nothing happened.