All I have Left

Please know, you're all I have left. Once you leave my heart, and soul are gone too. I can't figure out how to tell you, you mean the world to me. I want you to know that, my life is different when you don't bother me, pick on me, ignore me, fight with me, help me fight my battles. It's all different. You're not around, you don't tell me how to behave in front of guests, you don't tell me to stop embarrassing myself, you won't be able to be the first one on scene when I get called into the principals office for starting a fight. If we can't try and make peace now, before you leave, it won't be the same, and I don't think I can find another guardian angel like you. I hope that in the end after we make up or hate each other more, if you leave or stay, if we talk or don't, if you love me or not, that we still will have each other's back's even if we don't wanna admit we do. Thank you for being there when I needed you, now I hope I can be there for you, when you need someone the most.

Help Me Remember

It hurts to see that I love you, but we can never be. Your from one world I'm from another. I would come to you with any problem, and you would be there for me. You  would come to me for whatever reason, and I'd let you cry on my shoulder. I know you need me, and you know I need you. I can't get over how close we were, and how far we've separated, theres this huge gap between us and no matter how hard we try we can't seal it off or at least bring it back together. You left right when the sun rose, we didn't even have a chance to talk about it. I just want to remember how we were before and how much I loved you, and how close we were! Just for one night can't we be the same as we had been back then? Help me remember use before. Help me remember it all. I want those days that we were still a couple yet best friends. I miss you, on those days we had our moments and nothing else mattered. Help me remember it all. The true us, the real life, before we split, when I was loving you and when you were loving me. Help Me Remember...

My Get Away.

I open the door to my secret get away,
Peer in and grin.
Shut the door in a hushed manner, tip toe back to the living room.
Grab a glass, a coke bottle, an ice tray, and a bottle of rum.
With my gear in hand, I head back to my second life.
Thinking of the peace, I take a front row seat, and mix a drink.
Shut my eyes, to see the life I wish I had. Tilt my head back, to shake the bad life out, and take a sip.
Inhale the manner of my great life, and exhale the manner of the life I wish I never had.
Sitting there hoping I could share this moment with someone I care for.
Yet this moment is best celebrated alone.
I understand the meaning of having a life,
And the meaning of having a life everyone one wishes they had.
Yet in this situation, I want to make my own life,
Make my own luck,
Make my own dreams,
Make my own wishes,
Make my own moments.
I want.... to be my own person. I down the rest of my drink,
to the very end, till there is no coke, no ice, no rum left.
I smile, and know that I still have a life ahead of me...
I can  make a difference, if not in my life,
Then in one others life.
I'm brought back to reality, then begin on making my dream.

Inspiration

I do what I do, not to please you or you, but to please me, myself and I.
I kiss who I wish, but do not tell.
I breathe for life, but rarely speak.
I don't like to stress, I'm free like a bird.
Once was cadged in, now let go.
My whole life was lived under rules,
Rules not made by me.
My life was controlled by people, that didn't understand my point of view to things.
Now I'm free, they saw me leave, they saw me grow, the see the place I'm in now, they see where I have gotten,
They have seen what I have done for myself.
But I will never regret all that I have done, I made mistakes, but learned from them and made more accomplishments.

Truth

My neck is stiff from turning my head,
My eyes are watery staring all the time,
My back hurts from turning away,
My heart aches from when you dropped and lost it,
Now I'm a puzzle with a few pieces missing,
I don't ever think I can forgive you,
For what you did that killed me,
Now I'm on my own, my things missing, my things hurting, my things dieing, my things disappearing...
But I know I'll still make it without you.

You Want...

You want me in your life and you want me to love you. But right now I'm sick of playing your games! I loved you and you knew that and you know that I still love you no matter what happens, you will always hold a special place in my heart and you can't be replaced. Yet you used how I felt about you, and took that and used it against me. You split my heart in two. But now that I think back on it maybe it's not so bad that you did that, because I just saved myself so much more of a heartbreak, even though I wish I was with you right now... in your arms, with your lips on mine, your hands around my waist, my chest against your chest. The funny thing is, even though we're over, every now and then you run back to me and the cycle repeats... and since we're over the pain is just a bit more fun because now we don't fell guilty with our pleasure. Always and Forever, our pleasure will remain between us too.

The World In True Form

Love is fake. Hate is real. Death happens all around. Life happens once. Tears fall everyday. Smiles surprise you. Strangers aper. But having the same feelings for you happen all the time. We had a thing, then lost each other. I had to break away from the one who put me together when I got hurt. The scars last forever. The pain occurs once in awhile. The heart break kills when I remember us before. The smiles at this moment are cover ups of my true pain. Life became a nightmare and we are all living in it, because we don't know how to get away from it, from the memories, from the good, from the bad, from it all. And we just sit and have everything rush back to us. Your naive, rude, selfish, conniving, ignorant, and spoiled. You wish to have everyone bow down at your feet but if such doesn't occur you, go wild with rage, your face boils, your eyes widen, and your fist's clench. So I left and the one your with now has been passed around like a dirty wash rag, used time and time again. And baby our relationship was like a ship hitting rocks, yet I was the best, most faithful, and hottest chick you ever had and ever will. In the end... I still love you.